Sunday, August 26, 2012

Letter to her.

Hey up there.
Are you watching? 
Do you approve? 
Do you like me?
Questions like this and many more run through my head.
He does not know this.
Nor that when I touch this necklace I am talking to you.
I don't understand myself why I do.
I think we would have gotten along.
What I hear of you I like.
A sweet woman.
Kind, selfless heart.
I wish you were here.
He does too.
We all do.
I see the love he had for you in his eyes all the time.
Your name comes up and he can't stop smiling.
He misses you.
He thinks the world of you.
I know you made him who he is.
I am thankful for that.
You made him an amazing man.
I hope I get to meet you one day.
Until then I will continue to look to you for guidence.
I hope you will be there for me when I need to talk to you.
Lead me on the right path in my life.
I hope I can be half the woman you were.



Thursday, August 23, 2012

What is love?


Love is a slow kiss goodnight
It is anticipation.

Love is an imperfection in yourself not bothering you.
It is acceptance.

Love is passing up an opportunity because the time isn't right yet.
It is patience.

Love is a back massage that starts above the hairline and ends around the innersoles.
It is exploration.

Love is not having to say, "Let's make love", because you know what the other person wants.
It is understanding.

Love is being given an honest chance to say no when you thought you were committed.
It is consideration.

Love is saying the perfect phrase to make a solemn embrace dissolve into giggles.
It is humor.

Love is being told, "Stop and I'll kill you".
It is desire.

Love is reviewing the damage to your living room and realizing personal effects are strewn in a clockwise pattern from the front door to the bedroom.
It is abandonment.

Love is seeing what your lover really looks like for the first time.
It is truth.

Love is knowing what time it is and not caring.
It is joy.

Love is the arms around you tightening their embrace.
It is ecstasy.

Love is telling a person, if you have to leave, you will let them sleep, and being told they would rather be awakened.
It is tenderness.

Love is waking up to find the subject of the dream you were having asleep on your shoulder.
It is where fantasy meets reality.

Love is being there to wake your lover........slowly.
It is sensuousness.

Love is belatedly knowing why you bought a king size bed three years ago.
It is practicality.

Love is two people only taking up a third of a king size bed.
It is closeness.

Love is knowing you gave the extra set of keys to the right person.
It is trust.

Love is saying goodbye and knowing you will be back by mutual consent.
It is faith.

Love is stretching your arms and discovering the real meaning of the word "sore".
It is a lesson in human fragility.

Love is opening your medicine cabinet and finding your toothpaste turned into a pretzel.
It is adaptation.

Love is sitting at the window, looking out, and remembering who you were with the night before.
It is reflection.

Love is hearing the weather forecast for a winter storm, and wishing you could spend it in bed with your lover.
It is loneliness.

Love is stories that will never be told.
It is personal.

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

My Heart...



A new beginning, refreshing.
Something I have needed for a very long time.
It's strange to be doing something just for me.
I was lost at first. New to the entire ordeal.
Afraid a mistake had been made.
How could something be right if I was hurting others?
Why should I be happy if they are not?
Then I looked in the mirror and saw a shine in my eyes.
A shine that had been absent for a long time.
I looked into his eyes and saw happiness as well.
I now know this is right.
He found me when I was lost.
He is leading me on the path to my happiness.
A path to something I had forgotten.
He is showing me my heart again.